Saturday Night Fever

Alright now i have something to work with.

So this past saturday we were all kickin it havin a good time, you know and I hooked up with this girl. She is about a 7.5 Latina so it was pretty good. I dont even know how i did it really...its not like had to say anything to get it going, one minute i was just sitting down and the next im climbing up in bed with her trying to put my dick in.

I guess we both had it in mind before and when she came back from someplace i just got up and we started making out and then got on the bed, and from there...ill leave it up to the imagination. I was hella sloppy about it though cuz i havent fucked in a long time, so i was trying to tear her pants off and the lights were off so it took awhile, and she left a huge hickey on my neck and arm, the likes of which i have never seen in my waking life.

Im pretty sure it wa just cuz of my non-chalant attitude and body language, but i cant say for sure, plus it was her birthday so maybe thats something special.. Honestly the only thing i said to her was along the lines of "I want to fuck you so bad" and that was after we had already started makin out and shit.

Anyways, I'll just be nice to her and tell her its just a summer thing or something, just i case she gets a lil attached. Shes cute though, rather dumb, but cute, and she doesnt talk much so thats cool too. Its just a kid thing for her, i dont want to break her heart so i will just tell her straight, Im in it for fun, no commitment. She wont mind, well im sure she'll mind but Its my decision, its my life. Shes not in my plan, it just happened. Alright that sounds convincing enough. Im done with this, Star out.

I know i have been shirking my responsibilities to this page so here i make my pennance.

The point of this blog is to be about girls right? So lets start with that.

I havent really partied this much this summer and thats the usual way that i meet girls. There was one party that was at my Jewish friends house where i met a few girls, but they werent anything special. One was a HB6 or 7ish, cute face kinda chunky, LAtina i think. I didnt talk to her much but i did make fun of her name in a playful way, i think she was too dumb to figure that out. Didnt talk to her again. Oh but i did invite one girl that I hung out with in high school some that i had a kind of crush on. She is probably a 8 but i like her style and I hadnt seen her in awhile so i invited her to party with us. My dumbass was having a good time and all but guess what, i passed out hella early. Head on the table, stone cold passed the fuck out. I guess it was because I was tired and probably cuz i went outside and smoked a bowl in the greenhouse with the first HB and some friends of mine. Usually a bad idea during a party, I never learn. So i wake up the next morning on the couch, freezing and find out that the girl i invited over was making out with one of the other dudes at the party, in a bathroom or something. Fucker. Hes kinda my friend though and i wasnt really feeling her anyway(she hasnt really changed at all, it seems), so i didnt really care and was just kinda dissapointed. The next night we had another party at the same house and I was texting her and she came over again, this time we were just chillin, way smaller and making fun of this 3rd grade Autobiography. I was reading it in borat voice, its as close to a jewish one i could get. So at the end of the night like 1 or 2 am she left and i said some completely dumbass thing. She was like Ok im leaving, call me later i guess. And i say yeah ok ill call you NEXT weekend. It just kinda slipped out. It was stupid to say. So a few days later i text her to go see Pirates 3 with some friends and she texted me back too late and missed the movie. Then i went to europe. Europe has been a stop to all my game.

So there are a few other girls i am working on, one i have been being real nice to for like 2 years now and she just graduated from HS, and she has been the only person i have really been interacting with while in Europe. I have been Poking her on facebook everytime i go on, kinda lame but I guess it floats her boat she she keeps poking back. Photo comments and wall posts too, what a player i am.

Another girl, i usually only talk to her on AIM and Facebook, we have decided to go out when i get back from europe and she gets back. On our last Aim convo though, she really seems like she wants me, she keeps throwing things in like Youre hot or Something Something, thats why I Love You. I think shes just a repressed nerd who hasnt had dick in too long. Shes real cool though, possibly smarter than me( smarter intellectually, not socially) but doesn,t know how to make herself look real hot(most nerds dont) but she has a lot of potential. I also think shes self conscious about her nose, cus the always takes those overexposed pix and puts them on her facebook. She works at Barnes and Noble, and would probably be really easy to talk to.

Another Girl, Shes real young, i think like 16 who i met when i came up for my brothers birthday, found me on myspace and sent me a message after like a month. Heh, shes a model and has a good body, but shes friends with my brothers girlfriends friends so im kinda wary. Plus i think shes too young, How young is too young?

In Europe i have been really Alpha male most of the time cuz my bro has been with his GF who is extremely high maintenance and spoiled, so he is always acting like a bitch with no backbone. I get all the looks from the girls but i dont really do anything, I wanted to go to the mile high club with this one girl that kept looking at my on an airplane, but i didnt really know what to do. Ive decided that until i have more skills i need a good wingman there to help out. Funny story, My bros GF is so spoiled that she actually left to go home a few days ago cuz she was homesick. 4000 dollar ticket home that mommy got for her, So shes gone now. LOL I knew she couldnt hang. And she would cry and act like a 4 year olf but thats beside the point

Side Note: I have decided that both of my parents have really bad social skills, my mom cant carry on a conversation, and doesnt talk a about things other than what is obvious, she is always saying What? even when she isnt part of the conversation and she always defends people when they are having a conversation, and ruins the conversation. Its really annoying, and she wont stop it. And i figured out my dad had bad skils cuz for one his GF is a superfobb who sounds like a bobomb from Super Mario 64 and he has no friends really, except his mom who he treats like shit. Plus he is really cheap, REALLY cheap, and its hard for him to give money to anybody, even though he makes alot. I dont even think the government knows he exists. Everything is in my grandmas name.

While in europe we pretty much havent met anybody at all, because of a lack of social skills all around, We met a couple in line to get into the Roman Coliseum who actually had really good game, and one girl when my bro and i went out in Rome for a night alone. She just sat at our table and we started talking to her. From michigan, rich girl, sorority, summer abroad, boyfriend(she wanted a dick though, or maybe she just wanted to meet us) We talked to her for like an hour or more( well mostly me) and then we left. OH, before we met her I was telling my brother about game stuff and how to meet girls and basic mystery method stuff, he seemed like it was plausible. Plus i got to learn how he got with some of his girls, He said he used lines like do you want to kiss me? or his friend said Do you think im attractive? I was surprised, he has game but he doesnt know when hes using it. Plus im trying to get him to break up with his GF cuz shes a spoiled princess bitch, so he can get better with girls and we can meet them together.

Im going to see the Leaning tower of Pisa now maybe ill meet some people there, probly not, Im with my socially retarteed mom and my overconfident stubborn brother. Star Out.

Ps sorry if this was extremely long or diary like, i havent updated inawhile, oh and id like some advice on which girls i should pursue, or if i should wait again to meet new ones.

Pick Up Starts When You Wake Up in the Morning

Today was my first day at my summer internship. I interned there last semester and knew what to expect. My whole day was as expected. So i went over to HR department later in the day, i was just in complete work mode and behind a cubicle was this super cute girl. I was in shock because no young people my age work there. I talked to her for like 5 minutes in isolation (the other HR woman had to get some papers) i fucked up a lot in the conversation because my mind was wandering way too much thinking how perfect this could be. I didn't even ask her relationship status or relate to her on a more emotional level. I know she goes to a jc and wants to go pre-med or after my suggestions a nurse, haha. At least I got my girl of the day, i'm gonna try and talk to her tomorrow cuz it will be the last time i will have real reason to come to the HR office (so far away from my office) then i can establish some more rapport and tell her i might drop by from time to time. I just wish i knew if she had a boyfriend... On the bright side before I probably would not have even initiated the conversation or knew what i did wrong after i did.

- Teddy out

Examining my Summer before its too Late

Useful summer activities: reading, working out, approaching girls, sarging, going on dates, partying, going to my internship, filling out applications for stuff, traveling, projects with friends, reading blogs and e-books, and updating my blog

Nuetral: hanging out with the same friends i hang with everyday/summer?.. fun at times but sometimes boring... old friends seem to have diminishing value at times, had many long conversations about this with Star

Useless summer activities: watching porn and jacking off, watching tv, listening to too much music, facebook/youtube, sleeping too much, complaining, playing computer/video games, drinking without a good reason

For every one useless thing i do a day i'm gonna try and do 2 useful things
I just finished the self confidence exercises and RJM questions... it is like 8 pages in word single spaced so i might post it later... maybe after Star posts a few things. Oh and I totally missed my hot girl of the day today.. I had like a two second chance to get her attention but she totally surprised me at trader joes, she was getting an item and running around the store and i was in line in a rush, most adorable girl too, kinda pissed at myself

- Teddy out

Update on Girl and my life

I decided I need to update this blog more than when I am just drunk and frustrated. These updates help get the shit that is on my mind out on paper and out of my everyday thoughts, kinda weird how it works. It gets rid of a lot of my AFC thinking too just not thinking or caring about the shit that happens and just being genuine. I remember I heard somewhere that: “being honest is not having to remember what you said” so it works well with me especially since I’ve been interacting so much more socially now that I actually cannot recall every remote detail from the conversation.

Another thing I realized is that I really shouldn’t get too drunk because I usually just end up doing stuff straight from The Game which never works for me, I dunno why I do it in retrospect instead of being purely confident and genuine which works way better.

Another Random Note:

I am sick of my parents always fighting with each. Every other day they have like 10 to 15 minutes of them being pissed off and yelling at each other over completely nothing.. they have nothing to be angry about, my dad has a great job and so does my mom, we have plenty of money and my mom and dad make big deals over stupid things like buying something or going to a dinner party… my parents are crazy and I am hating living at home.

Update on that girl I was supposed to have a date with:

So all my dates with that girl fell through. We both tried to schedule times to hang out but either I was busy or she was busy, which usually would just be an indicator that she doesn’t want to go on a date but it was during finals week in which no one usually has time for anything anyways. So after a weekend of flaking and some flirtatious phone calls ending in neither of us meeting up, I had a good TM conversation with her:

Me: I just met your twin (I actually did, not just using the line from magic bullets)

Her: Who might that be haha

Me: I don’t know I said hi **** and she was like nope and then smiled

Her: haha ive done that b4 what r u doin tonight?

Me: im studying and doing work for my finals and projects tomorrow morning.. I get out of finals at one tomorrow, you?

Her: Same (totally think she lied here, I mean why would she ask me what I’m doing tonight if she was busy anyways?.. unless… she meant same by being out of finals early)

Me: ***** **** after finals? (our fun specific date we had in mind for awhile)

Her: lets do it

(maybe I shouldn’t have ended the convo here.. I tend to end conversations too early with girls when I could just banter more with them but I don’t know if drawing a conversation out with her is too confident instead of just acting confident and that I have other more important things to do than just banter TM with her for a half an hour)

So after I finished my finals I texted her “you out yet” she didn’t respond and I called her like 3 hours later after I got done packing. She answered and said she had been lost on the beach for hours, her friend laughed in the background about it, I said it must have been a great adventure, we bantered for awhile. She asked what I was doing and I told her I was packing and then told her we missed our date, she said that she texted me back and said “let’s go” and I never called her back so she went to the beach. She is very self confident and not clingy which is one of the things I like about her. I told her I didn’t get it but whatever (my phone isn’t that great at receiving messages sometimes) and she said she’ll send it right now, I said it’s cool I have to leave soon anyway. I asked if she still had a time to go on our date and she said she had this dinner thing tonight with her friends parents who are graduating but I should drink and hang with her later tonight. I said I had to go (family travel stuff) and she told me not to go (FUCK!!), we then talked about what we were to do over summer, I forgot what she said. She said that if I’m in LA to call her cuz she will be there and that she might come up to the bay and definitely call me if she comes, I told her we’d go clubbing in the Marina if she came then we had an awkward well cya end to the convo.

Maybe I should have bantered more, I probably could have easily talked and joked with her for another 10 to 15 mins but I really don’t like long phone conversations that much plus I usually end the conversations once there is a little low to them.

Should I call her over summer randomly, text her, facebook message, do nothing? Any suggestions? I think I’ll call her when I see a midget cuz we have this inside joke with them. I’m sure I’ll see a midget sometime over summer and it’ll be a good time to call her and I’ll tell her that I just saw a midget and I thought of her, great banter to start off our convo and get her laughing.

Other than that:

I am now back to how every other summer has been I hang out with the three same guys and will sometimes see girls on weekends at parties at colleges or from our high school but more rarely. I might be able to try and get in with some girls I meet but it will be hard given the short number of social encounters I have with other girls, plus these short number of encounters put way more pressure on me cuz I am just in a cubicle at my internship all day and then I have to go out and meet girls only on weekends while drinking.. I’m pretty over it.

That’s why I decided to just do the hot girl of the day thing where at least I can hone my game during the day just telling girls how I feel about them and brightening their day and mine. My friends may think I’m crazy but whatever, they have way too many fucking stupid limiting beliefs which is really pissing me off as of late. This is also why I want to hang out with Star more this summer and go to malls and do our projects we have in mind (film and music videos).

I am working on the self examination thing from Dan at charisma arts. I almost finished that and I also just finished Magic Bullets, it was pretty good overall but I take some of it with a grain of salt. The phone game stuff really helps along with other specific topics covered. Looking at myself and reading more stuff from the community I think I’ll probably try and use a combination of the RJM and charisma arts method (the cocky funny stuff and NLP really doesn't fit my style, i really don't need to increase my inner game, i just need to change the kind of people i hang out with who are not on a path of self improvement and enlightenment). I am going to try and also finish the RJM (razorjack method) questions about myself as well. I am just starting on Juggler’s e-book right now and I am looking forward to reading through it.

- Teddy out

Growing Some Balls

Truthfully I think both my roomate and I need to grow some balls. My roomate in meeting and approaching new girls not within his social circle (I need to do the same), and me for fucking not kiss closing on girls.

In the last four days i had 3 clear chances for kiss closing girls. One was tonight and I am just like wtf is wrong with me because i realize it like an hour after my chance. There is like a 20 or 30 minute window with my conversation style (need to work on sexual barriers) that is perfect for kiss closing I just need to man up and fucking do it.

I gave myself an excuse tonight because I am having a date with a girl I like tomorrow (i didn't want to cheat on her? but that is bull shit). I talked with a girl for fucking 2 hours tonight and 30 mins in I could have easily brought her outside and made out with her. I have basically mastered bantor and can easily see when girls want to talk to me from their body signals (so I only go direct), so there is no reason why I should not be able to just man up grow some balls, isolate the girl and kiss close AT LEAST.

Fuck I feel so gay.. but when thinking of The Game, Style had the same problem I am having now in closing. It just doesn't feel right or feels creepy but when in reality it is completely natural and it is almost creepy and strange not to do it. The only girls I have ever kissed the relationship (not gf ever, i never have had a real gf) has gone to at least oral sex or I was near blacked out drunk and it was meaningless or least I thought so at the time.

I have a fucking power now to get any girl to laugh have a good time and open herself up to me. This girl I met tonight told me things about herself that her best friends probably don't even know, I established deep rapport and unfortunatetly I kept going into more rapport instead of transitioning into a kiss close. We were both completely in the comfort zone with one another but in reality I was nothing more than a funny guy who could be her cool gay friend instead of a funny guy who could be her cool hook up from time to time. I still haven't kissed a girl in months.

Well at least I have a date with a girl tomorrow, we are bf and gf for the week, somewhere during my bantor with her I brought it up and she ran with it (the stuff from pickuppodcast is golden). She is actually a really cool, interesting, smart girl who I find physically attractive as well but at this point in my development I really don't want a relationship so i'm not too sure what to do. She also has some crazy game which is fun to play with. I'll probably update tomorrow how the date goes, i'm gonna surprise her with a cool lunch after our scheduled trip. Plus, I already told her i have to get at least second base with her this date on her facebook (basically telling her i'm not gay) cuz I didn't even kiss her on our first date and she responded with a maybe and a funny joke. According to style maybe means yes so i basically have it in the bag as long as i don't lose my balls.

I realize now i don't fuck up talking to girls almost ever. I am getting really good social intuition really fast, but i just need to make the move. I'll update more tomorrow and pray I don't pussy out again.

- Teddy out

Field Report

Well not really a field report because we did not go out sarging or anything but just stuff within social group. So my friend had his sister and her friend come visit him. I flirted a lot with the sister the first night (I would never do anything.. it’s my friend’s sister, plus he’d kill me) just for fun and seeing what got her to like me better, etc. I got her to the point of nick naming me and I nick named her as well and of course there was a lot of kino. The next night her friend came who is rather attractive and my friend, my other friend and his gf, the two girls, and I went out to eat. On the way I cracked jokes and made the girls laugh and (lets just call girl 1, friend’s sister and girl 2 is her friend) I got girl 2 to show interest in me. I realize now friend 1 and I (friend 1 the one with sister here and friend 2 the one with gf) probably talked too much about friend 2 in the car.

Dinner was fun and we went back to the dorms with nothing to do but drink due to lack of activity on campus. So we drank and as always friend 2 had to be AMOG of the whole group while playing beer pong but instead of getting pissed or anything I simply acted as if he was equal not above or below me. If I addressed friend 2 and he wouldn’t respond, which usually pisses the shit out of me (sorry if I come off as needy but that is just plain rude) I would just act uninterested in him and when he says ‘huh?’ I would wait a few seconds and say ‘what?’ and act as if he had been the one grabbing for my attention. First time I was with girl 2 alone I talked to her first about simple stuff like college but then asked her what she does for fun and she redirected the question at me and we flirted for awhile, but then our flirting was interrupted by a girl 3 (just a girl friend 1 was hooking up with) forcing me to play a game of beer pong. So the night went on with drinking and two AFCs came who before I would have considered competition but now I was confident enough to simply make them more social proof to me. I asked girl 2 a question she answered and then the other two AFCs came into the room and surrounded her and then friend 2 came and said it looks like you have 3 guys hitting on you and I simply didn’t respond while the 2 AFCs tried to explain or laugh and blush.

Oh so time goes by and I talk to girl 2 again and say: now that I know what you do for fun what are you passionate about? and then I let her talk while I did the vacuum technique. She liked dolphins which I found amusing, we flirted for a while and then she asked if I knew her name (I know it now but it’s a weird name.. hard to remember) which I totally forgot but acted as if I did (not sure if she could tell I think she could), so I called her zesty the rest of the night, I just randomly thought of it, I guess I was thinking about the old taco bell commercials or something. I later said I’m gonna give you a test and I asked her the three qualities that best describe herself and one of them matched my three (it really did) so she passed the test and she in turn asked me my three qualities which were genuine, confident, and outgoing (she also said outgoing), which I think are three great qualities but almost a little too cocky.

Later in the night, on the way to the bathroom, I see girl 2 coming back. She goes “hey spicy” and I’m like “wait, spicy?” while exchanging kino (I had my hand on her hip and she was touching my arm) She goes “yah like” puts her finger and a her breast goes tzzzzz then blows it and says “spicyy”. In retrospect I should of just went caveman on her right there and then and started making out with her cuz it was the only chance of us being alone and her giving obvious IOIs. I could have even said mystery’s line. But instead I played it off all smooth by going “ok” and simply smirking and walking to the bathroom then girl 1 came out and flirted with me in the hall.

When I came back to the room I was pretty drunk and decided to run some tests on girl 2 but she seemed like she wasn’t as interested anymore, we were just flirting a lot now and building up sexual tension, I probably should have used sexual barriers and (I had been hanging out with her all day since 7 and we hung out till 3am so I could do a legitimate full close). I ran the cube and this other test my friend back home came up with, which was just asking her favorite color, animal, body of water, a room with white light, and why. Each one represents something, how one thinks others perceive them, how one feels about themselves, sex life, and how one feels about death whether a window or not. The actual answers don’t matter, the why is what you recite back to them. She asked if I was a psych major, hah. Girl 1 at this point would constantly hit me in a flirtatious way and call me the nick name she made up from the night before (where I totally disqualified myself and for some reason really pissed off friend 2). At one point everyone decided to go outside and I decided not to follow partly because girl 2 did not ask me to come and it was past 3am and I was tired.

Now here’s the weird part, when they come back girl 2 goes into the other room with friend 2 and they lie in bed together and start whispering. I’m like, wow, I guess friend 2 is gonna cheat on his gf which I am pretty sure he did. Friend 2 had also amoged me earlier when I went back to the room (from the bathroom) saying how I don’t bring girls back to the room and what not. I can’t wait till next year. I’m not totally sure what happened outside but whatever happened was a pretty much 180 twist to what went on before hand. I just went back to my room and went to sleep after 20 mins or so.

Overall I was pissed when the night ended but not that angry. I learned from my mistakes or maybe just mistake. Another thing is that the girl was around 3 to 4 inches taller than me (friend 2 even negged her earlier to point of turning her off when he called her goliath, then I told her she needs to be more confident in herself which pissed friend 2 off) and I could have hooked up with her while before I would never have thought of hooking up with a girl that much taller. I would have just thought she was out of my league. I followed the model pretty well, I disqualified myself a little and had her qualify to me. I demonstrated value a few times when talking about college (she is a senior in high school, but mature for her age which I found attractive). We were both very comfortable with each other by the end of the night but when it came to seduction I didn’t push the envelope… it’s kinda hard when I haven’t even kissed a girl for like months now… shit… well, I’m sure I’ll see her again, but nothing will probably come of it now.

Sorry this field report was so long and messy with things out of order but I haven’t posted in a while so I decided to keep this blog going I had to post something.

- Teddy out